EA wants its proprietary game development and rendering engine to be known as a jack of all trades. The engine is a disaster for devs and gamers alike, while being a master of nothing. — I have a lot of opinions about the next installment of the skateboarding mega-hit franchise, Skate. My opinions bring along many assumptions. I’ll be assuming a lot about Electronic Arts, the publisher funding the development of the next Skate game. I’ll be assuming a lot about which studio might end…

The story of Saskatchewan Politics and how it came to the dangerously inefficient system it is today. — I received a call yesterday from the Saskatchewan New Democratic Party, a social-democratic political party I hold membership to. They asked if I was interested in running as a candidate in my riding, and I said yes enthusiastically. I had no idea how to process the information; it has been…

Owned, used and thrown away. How many times does sexual harassment and abuse have to happen to me until it’s my fault I didn’t notice sooner? — The saying, “Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me,” tends to come up a lot when I think about my sexual past. My libido is lower than others, but when I get into the mood I tend to be somewhat insatiable if others initiate and…

Using conflict resolution tools with headmates can lead to effective, eye-opening introspective meditation. — Recently I was involved with a lot of drama, and its sunken me into a deep pit of loneliness. Two specific events come to mind; in one case I’ve lost a friend whom I met a year ago, and in an unrelated situation I found myself pushed out of a…

“Just stop being lazy.” — I’ve heard it repeated to me over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over again. “Just stop being lazy.” “Just clean your room.” “Just do something.” If it were that easy, I wouldn’t be convinced that the only reason I continue to exist…

if i feel the water, do they feel it too? — i stare at the mirror. i want to believe that’s me, but it isn’t anymore. it’s “us.” a home we’re all locked into without doors. we just have two windows connecting us to the outside world. sometimes it’s enough. sometimes we want more. i look at my… no. our hands. …

The original king of racing games has become a tired old man. I found the new blood to replace him. — My family has owned a personal computer for as long as I can remember. Almost every video game I played was from a single Sunsoft shareware disc. Skunny Kart and Fighter Pilot were among a wide selection of game demos that took up my free time on the PC. …

A little while ago I talked about my history as a weird kid who was interested in weird shit. That weird shit eventually grew into a kink I now enjoy. One thing I never touched in regards to those experiences was the lack of closeness I had to other people…

How I learned to stop repressing myself and embrace what makes me human. — CONTENT WARNING: This article touches on or deeply discusses triggering subjects such as child sexual abuse, child grooming, pedophilia, lolicon, ageplay, rape and suicide. “I’m A Mess And I Love It” is an album I wrote and produced with the intention of exploring new music production methods. I wanted my lyrics to match that intention. I tried writing about most of the things I’ve written in this article, but I was never able to…